Circle of Friends in the Circle of Life!

It's been overdue for a very very very long time now.  More than a year since my last post.  Not a single one in 2012.  But I think it is good not to write at all instead of forcing myself to come up with words, which at times might not even be the right words.  You see I've realized I've grown stronger mentally and emotionally as a person over the past year.  But it is good to come back once in a while, & here I am, maybe not with the right words, but with what I feel and think.

I used to watch “Friends” and “How I Met Your Mother” and always wonder does such a friends group exist in real life.  You know what, it does exist.  It’s not just in reel life, it can actually exist in real life.  I believed this only when I found my Group.  My F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

We don’t exactly know how, but we all just got pulled like iron fillings towards the magnet of Friendship.  From a class of 60+ students, it was just with each other that the 4 of us blended so well.  The friendship has grown so strong that it is evident to every living creature in GEMS (I mean it, even the dogs in the campus know that we 4 belong together).  The friendship has blossomed to the extent that people turn green with jealousy every time they see us together.  People talk about us, lecturers take our friendship as example for the other students.  We spend our weekdays anticipating and planning the weekend, & each weekend is an epic in its own, ‘cause when the Chandaal Chowkdi comes together, hell breaks loose!

All moments are being captured to be treasured for life.

My relationship with each one of them is at different wavelengths, but yet each one of them is special to me in their own way (some being very special for me).  I’m addicted to them, and I can’t imagine life without them.

But soon reality is going to hit us, hit us hard!

Things are not going to remain the same.  Each one of our lives is going to change, is going to move on.  I fear missing this time so much, so much that I don’t want it to end.  I fear I will someday be just another friend among the 100s of friends in their Facebook list.

Why can’t time just freeze for us?!

Why can’t we have the same equation with each other as now all throughout our life?!

Is there really something called “Friends for Life”?!

Will we able to find the same comfort level in any other group?!

So many unanswered questions, and so less time.

Time is flying.  We’ve already finished more than a year together.  Just a couple of months left, and soon the college life will come to an end.  Each one will move on in life, into different phases of their lives, leaving a huge void in my life.

I know I should stop being a pessimist and start enjoying every moment I have with them, & that’s what I intend to do!

Make this memorable for them and for me….

‘Cause they are my Circle of Friends in the Circle of Life!

2011 - A Milestone In My Life....

Where do I start....
The year that changed the face of my existence..

From Shaista's Wedding earlier in the year and addition of a new member to our family, Naveed, to me deciding to do further studies to changing my job to finding new friends for life.. Everything unexpected.. Everything that I had never thought would happen..

This indeed was THE YEAR....!!!!

I dunno what 2012 has in store for me..

Right now, not feeling that overwhelmed to pour out my feelings.. But some day soon will post my 2011 experiences in detail..

For Now.. A Very Happy New Year Bloggy..!!!! :)

Modifications...!!!!

Time for Modifications that are of significance....

They say we need to close some doors just for the sake that they no longer fit in our Life.. Mind you, not because of pride..
But its better to have them shut than have any pointless drama, heartaches, grudges, accusations, ill feelings, etc.

Life Getting Ahead..

Finished "Revolution 2020" in flat 2 days..!!!!!
That's record time.. Haven't finished any book (page-to-page) in two days..
Proud of myself..!!!! :)

This story din't have a Happy Ending..
A bit disappointed about that..
So used to Chetan's Happy Endings..
The book overall was hardcore realistic.. But the ending became filmy (the part before the climax.. 'Cause everything gets alright at the end of the climax in Bollywood).

Life had always been unfair to Gopal.. He deserved justice in the end at least.. :(

But then again, what is a "Happy Ending" ????
The protagonist getting his soul mate, the love of his life ?
Getting married and settling down ?!?!
Is that what "Happy Ending" means ?!?!
I guess that's a Happy Ending in novels and movies..
But in Reality, Life doesn't stop at that.. There is a Beginning of a new story after the so called "Happy Ending"..
Or you just keep meeting the wrong people in life, and then someday you will most definitely find The One for you.. And yes, that will be one Happy Phase of Life.. :)

Every person is a Hero in his/her Life.. The protagonist of their own Life story..
Whether they do all the right things or wrong.. Whether they've been fair or have done injustice at some point or the other to somebody or the other.. Still everybody likes to see himself a Hero in his own story..
And they have all the right to do so..

I'm in a Revolutionary phase of Life right now..
How I was yearning for a change to happen.. Finally, got my well-deserved change.. :)

Life is full of surprises.. And it has given me a surprise, a pleasant one..
Here I am, getting ahead in Life.. :)

College starts next week..
I'm so very excited.. So happy for myself.. :)
I'm going to get a Masters degree from a Regular College that too an International Degree from South Asia University, London..!!!!
First one to reach the Masters level of education in my family.. (Mom-Dad, Bro-Sis)..
The second to get an MBA in my immediate clan..

I will be shutting up all those @$$#%* who underestimated me or disapproved of me or ever looked down upon me..

In a couple of months, will be out of CBay.. (Gosh! How much I hate that place..!!)
Waiting so eagerly for the day when I will put down my papers.. So wanna get rid of that place..

M.B.A. was a big decision.. And I took exactly 2 nights to make this decision..
I went through all the pros and cons.. and the pros list won..

Yeah, a huge chunk of my savings from the past 7 years will go for the MBA fees..
But I'm happy I'm not dependent on my parents for that.. I'll support my further studies with my hard earned money without being a burden on anybody (even my parents).. Its such an amazing feeling..!!!! :)

Life is going to be so hectic for the next 2 years.. So busy that even 24 hours a day won't be enough for me..
I will have to toggle between internship and classes and the quarterly exams..
Won't have time to think about anything or do anything that I like..
But that's what I wanted.. I wanted something that will keep me so busy that I do not have time to think of some things in Life..

I wasn't ambitious ever..
I had always thought of earning till I get married and be a home-maker after that..
But now I'm contemplating that.. I think I want to be a career woman..
And then again, I dunno what Life has in store for me..
For now, my MBA is my goal.. and I will achieve it..!!!!

Wonder how its going to be sitting and studying (not reading)..
I've lost touch with studies..
And CBay has rusted my brain, my memory, my communication skills, my confidence, everything..

Now, with every interview my confidence is increasing, and I'm also building up my coms..
Thankfully, am meeting so many people now who are building up my confidence, first one being Nehruzii Sir.. He is just so encouraging.. After my Aptitude and Psychometric tests, he has more confidence in me than I can ever have in myself.. And I will give my best and try hard not to dishearten him.. :)
(But damn, he is so strict..)

Before, I never could answer the question who my idol is.. But now I can proudly say Nehruzii Sir is my idol.. :)
He's gone through so much in life to have attained the status and position he is in right now..
When he speaks, its so motivating.. I'm just so impressed with him.. :)

And I've never seen Maa-Daddy so proud of me.. They're so supportive.. I realized it now.. :)

Burdened with too many hopes.. I just hope I don't let down anybody..
More than anybody else I don't want to let myself down..

And so now begin the most crucial years of my Life..
My belief in Allah has strengthened over the past couple of months..
I read Quran everyday now.. I don't sleep unless I read 50 verses every single day..
I thank Allah for answering my prayers, and I pray He gives me all the patience, strength, endurance, and of course memory power..
'Ameen.

Life.......

Life Sahi Hai..
Tension Nahi Hai....!!!!!!!!

P.S. Touch Wood x10.

Yet Another Transition..

Gathered up courage and have made some firm decisions..
Decisions that are going to change my life from good to better..

Yes, I will have to struggle a lot now, challenge my abilities, prove myself..

Getting out to face the world, learn new lessons, and accomplish what I had always wanted but was too timid to commit..
Putting myself out of my comfort zone..

My Life is changing, and changing for good..

I think "Life and Me" deserves a change too..
I have 2 options, either to delete it or go online..

And I choose to go online..

Praying for strength and patience and tolerance..
I want to do good.. and I will..!!!!!

You Live Only Once....

Just so true..!!!!!
But wish Life was a movie too..

After 11 months and 29 days, finally went for a movie..
Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara..
Worth the gap of 1 year....!!!! :)

So wanna live the life of any 1 of the characters in ZNMD!!!!

Supposed sequel to Dil Chahta Hai, and most definitely better than DCH..

Farhan and Abhay, just love them..
So nice to hear Farhan's husky voice yet again.. :)
And Abhay can sing as well.. :)

Have been listening to Senorita, Ik Junoon, and Suraj Ki Baahon Mein on loop..

One of my favorite movies..
Now waiting to get my hands on my personal copy of
ZINDAGI NA MILEGI DOBARA..!!!!