Response to Stimuli !!

Dear Dr. God,

You have given me the physiological mechanism of responding to any stimulus..
Like..

I pull my hands away when I touch something hot..
I sneeze when I catch cold..
I cough when I choke something..
I cry when my eyes are irritating or if I am sad..
I eat when I am hungry..
I smile when I am happy..
I blush when I feel embarrassed or shy..
I yawn when I am sleepy..
I laugh when I find something funny..
I feel bored when nothing is happening..
I listen to music when I am feeling low..
I shop when I feel the urge of shopping..
Etc., etc., etc., etc.

Then why.. Why don't I shut my mouth when am angry ?!?!
Why do I start shouting and blabbering when am angry ?!?!
I tell all that is not necessary and then feel guilty about it.... :(
Please, teach me how to respond when am angry..
Okae.. I pray for this..
Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease..

Life in Transition !!

In the matter of Friends, my life has been in transition..
From an All-Gals Gang to an All-Guys Gang..

In my schooling days, I was never used to being around/with guys..
I mean I dint have any friends who were guys..
Except for my cousins, with whom I used to spend my evenings.
And among these cousins also all were younger to me, except 1.
This group comprised of 5 guys (my brother and 4 other cousins) and 2 gals (my sister and I).
Our houses were close by so we used to play our games togehter after school..

And in school, it was an all girl's school..
So, there again no boys.

And soon when I was 10 years old, these 4 cousins of mine moved to Canada.
So my only friend who was a guy was my brother.

And then, the whole of my schooling years were in and around gals only.

I really din't know how to react when I was around guys of my age..
They were aliens to me..
And my college was also an all-gals college..
So, there again a BIG gang of Gals.. We were a total 9 of them..
And I love my college days more than my school days..
Those were the Best Days of My Life !! ;)

The first time I was exposed to guys was during my CET coaching classes..
And I had a tough time there..
I never used to talk to any guy..
Never respond to them at all..
The guys in my class used to call me Miss Touch-Me-Not.. :D
And I hated them all..

My next set of friends were at NEXT.. The medical transcription training center..
I was the youngest in my batch and so was pampered a lot..
And the guys in my batch never used to bully me.. they were like my big brothers..
I really love and miss the way I was pampered then..

Life moved on and I joined Spheris (Healthscribe then).
Here again I had only Varsha, Sudha, Chitra, and Shobha as friends..
No guys here too.. and we gals had a lot of fun..
Soon Chitra had to move to the opposite shift, Sudha quit, and Shobha moved away for some reasons..

Varsha and I were left..
We moved to a new team and new teammates, and most of whom we were close to were guys.

Very soon my friend circle had both gals and guys in it..
And I loved those times too..

Later things changed.. Varsha got married..
And now am in an All-Guys Gang..
The only girl in the whole gang..
And I like being like that too..
Coz guys are very much different from gals..
Hassle-free you know..
I mean, I feel, there are no jealousy or ego problems when with guys..
Hope am right..

I have 2 very very very very good friends, say my best friends, both are guys.
I had never ever imagined in my silliest dreams, I would have guys as my friends..

And now am having a different feeling..
I want to be alone..
I am my BESTEST friend..
Wanna spend all my time with myself..

But I know this is only short-term..
After all, when should I be such a loner.

Hmmmmmm....
Dunno which stage of transition I will move in the future.
Lets hope for the best, like it has been the best till now.. :)